Make decisions, alter them around it. Put your plan on hold, and restart it after a pause. You need to look at the bigger picture – when you want to make a ‘career’ in music.
What you’d want to be doing 10 years down the line is important. You should be moving in that direction or, at the least, preparing your mind to accept your current state and make a master plan to pursue music full-time at a later stage in your life.
Let’s meet up and record that thing inside of you – soon.